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I haven't updated in so long. I really enjoy just reading others blogs and looking at the pretty pictures. There's a whirlwind of emotions in me right now. I had my first and hopefully last skim on the top of a budding abusive relationship. Not good at all. I question why I let myself cry three times over a person not exactly worth crying over. Many times I only see others happiness,and accomplishments, especially with acquaintances I am unaware of their struggles, their hardships and their pain. Everyone loves something has lost something and hopes for something. Quote by I cannot remember. It's as if Jesus, was saying Hey Kaitlin. Remember me? Remember how much I love you an have great plans for you. Because right now you're idealizing and focusing on someone that isn't me. 1 Peter 1:6-8. My main struggles often have something to do with the learning process of male relationships. Why can't they teach that in class?! I would've studied. I am trying to remind myself that I deserve a friend or a dating candidate that I have fun AND feel good about myself after hanging out with them. I can't have someone putting me down (sarcasm is an excuse for insults, they are still insults nonetheless). This whole growing up thing is more difficult than I ever could've imagined... I will continue to pray for this guy, because I believe he needs Jesus a lot right now. I will also continue to pray for my future husband (I know you're out there- if you read this I'm Out here too! I promise I exist!! How great will it toddy ally meet and say I've been praying for you all of these years and I've got letters for you I wrote in my darkest times. To all the knitting blogs I follow: I read the updates every morning they make me smile. I love the fiber community. I am trying to be satisfied with the little things: how many blessings I have my beautiful cat Paprika and being able to create a sweater from a ball of string.

Love, K

Well. I don't want to pay 5$ to upload photos to ravelry so I'll be posting them here.

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God isn't the one who is lost; we all are. God is where He always is... we need to stop trying to "find God" and instead rid ourselves of the things that we use to hide from God.


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I was so deeply offended that someone would assume that it is one's fault that they feel void of God's presence. It is the worst thing to be told when you are so desperately trying to feel something that once seemed to be ever present, and then one morning is just gone. 

Source: postsecret.com

Some how. I agree with both email responses.

help.

It's been way too log since I've posted in this. Pictures will come when I sync my phone. A girl that I graduated with is 18 engaged and getting marries next June. This is extremely bewildering besides poking fun at the fact she can't drink at her own wedding or rent a car, it just freaks me out. How in the world do you know your identity enough to tie yourself forever with another person?! My vampire pimp cat is laying at my feet. They all laid on me this morning. Just what I needed... Only 2 wks and 2 days until my Tampa vacay ! ALONE. That's right. Hated how my boss implied traveling as a lone female is super dangerous. Whatever. I'm pretty smart and savvy. Always listen to my intuition. It will be a great relaxing time of knitting on the beach and listening to the ocean. :) now I can check that off my before marriage to do list haha. Although another vacay alone to an island would be fab too. I finished my first pair of socks! Too precious to wear...'on the second which has a lace heart pattern on the cuff. I spent today working 8 hrs and then spending 2'hrs laughing to damn you autocorrect .com. The things it writes for cookiemonster.'ha.' this summer is going by too fast! I hope I can make some friends my own age and find a church community (again with fellow college students) when I return that's my goal.

Whenever I feel lonely I remember: oh hi Jesus. And 90% off relationships fail :) a depressing fact when ones best friend decides to give her most precious gift to a guy who hasn't put a ring on it and doesnt even have a job.

cute kitten pic of the week. I figure these only take a minute.

Effy sez: I will chew your face...

Actually I'm just mewing. Momma caught me at zee wrong moment.

UPDATE is coming soon.!

Subjects discussed: "Unwind" Retreat in Blowing Rock, NC.

The continuation of the Ember and Effy story (both proudly adopted within 3 days on display).

The failed attempt to eat at Food Truck Friday...
The successful attempt at eating at Food Truck Fiesta the following day and meeting the wonderful Simonie from 3girlscupcakes..

:)

Effy and Ember

Photo Courtesy of Postsecret, Easter Post.

<3

*Kaitlin*